This one isn't going to be funny. Sorry about that.
I see my students frolicking in the halls, playing out their childhood dramas, trundling through the dawn of their years and I am jealous.
For me, all acts of remembrance hold a certain amount of melancholy. Wait no, I mean a certain TYPE of melancholy. A sort of sadness that is devoid of regret but at the same time stirs the heart to nestle in ones throat. I am not sure what this is.
It does not stem from a place of loneliness. Of this I am sure, I was raised by amazing people. At this moment, my mother is in Nepal hiking in the Himalayas while my Grandmother has just returned from a cruise which circled the continent of South America. My uncle is a professional musician while my Aunt is an artist of the highest caliber when she isn't hustling for the biggest and most prestigious humanitarian organization on the planet. I have a cousin living in Israel, one working in IT after going through all manner of medical hell and a broad family whose passions include architecture, education, medicine, and travel. I come from some good fucking stock. This is undeniable.
Likewise, I have any number of friends from diverse backgrounds who are spending their lives shaping the web, healing the sick, and/or becoming amazing in every aspect of the term. I am, without a doubt, incredibly fortunate in the personalities who have had the stupidity to be a part of my life. I hope they never wise up.
No, the melancholy comes from a different place. It is a part that, I suspect, is not a place of negativity, but one which stems from a much simpler impulse. I simply miss the moments that I shared with these people.
I have a distinct memory of a friend I had in pre-school named Brian. Brian and I were best friends for a few years when I was six, well best friends as one can have at that age. We spent hours together doing things that people our age did. I even remember the outlay of his house. It was a white house with the kitchen to the right of the entryway which opened forward to a living room with a couch and a street facing window. I remember playing with hot wheels and other pieces of molded plastic on the carpet of his house. I haven't talked to him since I was seven.
In elementary school, I had another friend also named Brian. He was a Christian skateboarder, the young breed of the hip protestant movement. His family were infinitely gracious to me. I remember having sleepovers at his house where we would sit in his bathtub and stare at the stars, having no conception of the things we were looking at. His family moved to Oklahoma in 7th grade and I haven't seen him since. The last time I spoke with him was when I called him to notify him that my father passed away. I heard he was on duty as a life guard when a young man died. I am sure we would have very little (or a lot) in common at this point.
In high school, a movie released called, Batman Begins. This is a film about a young man named Bruce Wayne going through the world's longest quarter-life crisis, kicking the shit out of ninjas to try and escape and contextualize the death of his parents while dressed as bat. It is one of the best pieces of pop entertainment in the last decade. It released on June 15th, 2005. I remember this because it was 10 days before my father passed away. He was in a hospital and I was, well, I was distraught. I was distraught, hadn't slept without tears for almost two weeks, and had a mild case of feeling awful about everything in the world. Sometime during that period, a friend of mine named John called me and told me that I needed to see the new batman film. I told him that I couldn't and he told me that he didn't care and that him and his brother, Steve, were going to come pick me up in 15 minutes. I protested. They picked me up and I saw the film. That one gesture on their part established an unrepayable debt in my mind to those two. I have not told either of this fact.
My family and friends are amazing, I am surrounded by people who have no business being the people they are. Someone who I have known since third grade is currently holding it down in China while another has just started with a company in Santa Monica. Anyway, that's all I have to say. Thanks people, I'll try to live up to these memories. Not like it will matter to any of you. This does not help with the pressure.
Also, Heidi is a badass. That is all.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Monday, March 26, 2012
Haylookitsa Parents
I know I am maturing because my life is becoming a litany of pointless stories.
My mom is in Nepal right now. This sucks for two reasons. One, she is a semi-old woman running around a second and sometimes third world country in hiking boots and a naive sense of adventure which is a fantastic way to worry a coddled Jewish son like myself. And second, she is further east than me. For a while I was the most eastward Kersten, and as we all know, if you are a white person from the western world your coolness is rated based on just how deep into the wild untamed orient you venture. My mom is basically a less racist version of a Kipling character. Also I'm pretty sure she has never shot a gun. This actually makes me worried more.
[This next part is for Mudnt, my economist friend...]
I keep getting asked if I am going to seek out my biological parents. I usually answer with a no and give an emotional answer about how much I love my current parents. I do love, to an extent, my current parents very much. However this goes much more elliptical than that.
What would I say?
What would her reaction be?
How would the other mother who taught me everything I know feel about this?
Here's the long reason,
I usually answer the question of my interest about my biological parents with a 'no', and emotional response, and leave it there. The REAL-ish reason I don't look for my biological mom or pop, is that I just don't care and I am a very lazy person. there are few things a lazy person wants to do less than stuff they don't want to do.
I mean there are at LEAST two million fuckers living on this peninsula and demographics dictate that half of them are women. This means there are AT LEAST a million women that I am supposed to comb through to find my mum. And, let's take this one step further, if there are AT LEAST two million people on this little priapic country, there are AT LEAST a million more men for me to have to go through in order to find my biological dad. That said, I am sure that with AT LEAST two million people on this geological tribute to Ron Jeremy AT LEAST a thousand people from each gender has died. This means that my sample size for finding my biological parents is AT LEAST about 2 out of 2002000. That leaves a very poor chance of finding my parents on this country that looks like a penis. I am also very bad at estimating.
Case in story.
When I was in the fifth grade, my teacher, Mrs. Gardiner, had a reward system for rewarding kids with rewards where we had to guess how many beans were in a jar. Each time you participated in class you received an opportunity to guess the number of beans and write it down on a board. The one most close to the actual number at the end of the week received two prizes: one, they were given a Costco sized box of candy, and two, they were allowed to bring in the next guessing thing.
Now, I (kind of) teach fifth graders right now and I thought about using this. And then I remembered how this scenario actually played out. In theory this game should work, it's based on a few simple ideas: people love gambling, kids can count up to certain numbers, people love collections of stuff, and candy is awesome. By all accounts this idea should work. Likewise, Stringer Bell should have gotten out of the 212 game cleanly with his undeniable ambition and intelligence, however, he gets got by a street rat wannabe Robin Hood via a granddad double barrel because of a call he made half a decade earlier.
My fifth grade experience with the estimating game was like a season of the Wire. Ms. Gardiner began the game by having the base rules stated above. Players were the only active participants, those who didn't play- the civilians were exempt, and although opportunity came a-knocking on the back of ambition, you would only be truly rewarded if lady luck deemed you worthy. It was an excellent metaphor for life(and selling heroin). If you were smart you were given an gambler's chance at winning a small bit of fleeting power and some hard sugar. The power, of course, is just a proliferation of the game itself so, in theory, it should never allow the game itself to get played and thus undermine the integrity of the guessing game's base conceit, to control and manipulate kids into sitting down and shutting up (that said, getting kids to sit down and shut up without hurting them physically is a fucking artform- more on this later).
The problems arise when someone figures out how to use the internal rules of the game itself to actually INCREASE the influence of the game. First case. A kid named Renee figures out that the most (and easiest) opportunities for participation are at the beginning of class, so Renee answers as many questions as he can at the beginning of each day, letting the rest of the sycophants in the class to squabble after the remaining bits of more prestigious but ultimately equal-valuable of the questions. Renee then waits for the smiling sycophants to write down their estimates at the end of the day. When he reaches the estimation paper he proceeds to use his handful of guesses to straddle the guesses other kids write down. So, in example, if Suzy Crackho writes down 560 he uses two of his day's estimations to do 561 and 559. This neutralizes Ms. Crackho's guess for the day. He also, being an engineer of both people and their systems, takes the time to figure out who is MOST likely to guess right. If given the choice, little Renee will spend his resources neutralizing kids with glasses or kids who seem to have the early signs of Asbergers/Autism (he ignores the obvious political incorrectness of this impulse, I mean the kid is in fucking fifth grade, give him some credit). Now, at the end of the month, when the number is called, Renee has covered a massive range of numbers. And of course, he wins more than his classmates. Now, he has a big box of treats and a little bit of power. But Ms. Gardiner is on to him.
Case 2. Ms. Gardiner is not an idiot, no, she is a Keynesian. seeing what Renee has done, she starts limiting the number of times a single kid can guess and forces each estimate to be a certain distance from the other she is introducing some artificial efficiency into her market. Now, Renee can no longer hustle his system. But of course, he is holding the power and the candy. Leveraging the candy, Renee begins approaching the aforementioned most likely candidates to win on the playground and starts lending them a milkyway here or a dipping dot there. Likewise, when it's his turn to run the guessing game, he uses materials that are almost impossible to properly guess, things like legos or peanut brittle where there are no real uniform sizes with which a rainman can run his voodoo(once again, kid is a fifth grader, cut him some slack on the PC side of things). This insures that he can have some semblance of control of the game. In fact now he controls both the street end (the play ground) and the business end (the guessing game) of things. Using his influence he begins leaking answers to his beneficiaries which are off enough such that Ms. Gardiner cannot see the manipulative distribution but close enough that outlying players who are not under Renee's influence can gain a foothold. Now, each time on of them wins, Renee takes a 35% candy cut and a promise to choose the next material. This 35% insures that bribes keep reaching the right hands while the choosing gives him the power to keep competition at bay. Influence and domination. That's how Escobar did it.
I always hated Renee. When I finally got to choose the things to be guessed, I tried to choose sand and Ms. Gardiner told me I wasn't allowed to do that and gave the choice to one of Renee's lackies. Renee also was later kicked out of school for biting a teacher, a nurse, and one of his colleagues in 6th grade. So there's always that.
Anyway, the game became the sole reason that we worked in the class.
In a sense, all fifth graders are sociopaths.
Renee's game worked for a simple reason. The simplest vision is usually the most easy to execute. This is because simple ideas tend to be linked into the more mechanical naturalistic processes of the world and society. It's why the Colosseum and Parthenon are still standing, why Jersey Shore is a cultural force, and why there are, and will be, so many illegitimate children.
I am an illegitimate child. And my biological parents want nothing to do with me. This isn't why I would not approach them though. They lost any say over my actions when they sent me to an orphanage, and I will ignore their autonomy from me because I don't care about their emotional states. That would be pretentious.
Being an illegitimate child is not that big of a deal because the whole concept is based off of relationships and relationships are becoming less of a big deal, and those are losing influence over how we navigate our lives for the same reason that Mrs. Gardiner's estimating game, and the DOJ's 'Operation Fast and Furious' failed.
Relationships are becoming more complex. And complex things fail. People have more things they want, more ambitions to see through, and more ways to not do either. Likewise, with the sexual revolution, there are more people to have sex with and more ways to pretend you are having sex. All these mores tend to lead to complication, and complication kills good ideas based in simplicity.
And I am not just talking about relationships that involve sex, in fact, in some ways I think the ones of the Philos and Agape are more complicated. Of course parental relationships involve both. This is a discussion for later though.
The point is that if I were to actually play the odds and hunt down my Bio-Mom, all my life and relationships with my adoptive parents, their parents, my cousins, my friends, and my life would come into play. I would be forced to feel and think about things I actively try not to care about but inform everything my identity informs in my day-to-day life which is indeed everything. This is a complex problem. I don't need to talk about this. In fact, I probably can't because I am not Amy Tan, I really don't know how to talk about identity issues in this kind of medium. Just imagine your own family and then multiply it by two families. Of course, I do know that this complexity would boil down into an unproductive act if I did find my biological parents.
I would probably just say passive aggressive shit to her. She would be getting groceries and I would say, "those tomatoes you got there sure do look like a SON of a gun..." or when she is waiting for a traffic crossing I would say, "Boy this sure takes a long time, someone could GIVE BIRTH waiting for a green light."
And here's the kicker. With all my trepidation and over-thinking this, I could say all the most twisted, bitter, things I wanted to her and you know what her reaction would be? She would just smile, nod, and cross the street. And I would be the silly young man out of fifteen million people in the greater Seoul area who mumbled something to her at the crosswalk.
And if she smiled and if this were her reaction, there would really be nothing else to say.
My mom is in Nepal right now. This sucks for two reasons. One, she is a semi-old woman running around a second and sometimes third world country in hiking boots and a naive sense of adventure which is a fantastic way to worry a coddled Jewish son like myself. And second, she is further east than me. For a while I was the most eastward Kersten, and as we all know, if you are a white person from the western world your coolness is rated based on just how deep into the wild untamed orient you venture. My mom is basically a less racist version of a Kipling character. Also I'm pretty sure she has never shot a gun. This actually makes me worried more.
[This next part is for Mudnt, my economist friend...]
I keep getting asked if I am going to seek out my biological parents. I usually answer with a no and give an emotional answer about how much I love my current parents. I do love, to an extent, my current parents very much. However this goes much more elliptical than that.
What would I say?
What would her reaction be?
How would the other mother who taught me everything I know feel about this?
Here's the long reason,
I usually answer the question of my interest about my biological parents with a 'no', and emotional response, and leave it there. The REAL-ish reason I don't look for my biological mom or pop, is that I just don't care and I am a very lazy person. there are few things a lazy person wants to do less than stuff they don't want to do.
I mean there are at LEAST two million fuckers living on this peninsula and demographics dictate that half of them are women. This means there are AT LEAST a million women that I am supposed to comb through to find my mum. And, let's take this one step further, if there are AT LEAST two million people on this little priapic country, there are AT LEAST a million more men for me to have to go through in order to find my biological dad. That said, I am sure that with AT LEAST two million people on this geological tribute to Ron Jeremy AT LEAST a thousand people from each gender has died. This means that my sample size for finding my biological parents is AT LEAST about 2 out of 2002000. That leaves a very poor chance of finding my parents on this country that looks like a penis. I am also very bad at estimating.
Case in story.
When I was in the fifth grade, my teacher, Mrs. Gardiner, had a reward system for rewarding kids with rewards where we had to guess how many beans were in a jar. Each time you participated in class you received an opportunity to guess the number of beans and write it down on a board. The one most close to the actual number at the end of the week received two prizes: one, they were given a Costco sized box of candy, and two, they were allowed to bring in the next guessing thing.
Now, I (kind of) teach fifth graders right now and I thought about using this. And then I remembered how this scenario actually played out. In theory this game should work, it's based on a few simple ideas: people love gambling, kids can count up to certain numbers, people love collections of stuff, and candy is awesome. By all accounts this idea should work. Likewise, Stringer Bell should have gotten out of the 212 game cleanly with his undeniable ambition and intelligence, however, he gets got by a street rat wannabe Robin Hood via a granddad double barrel because of a call he made half a decade earlier.
My fifth grade experience with the estimating game was like a season of the Wire. Ms. Gardiner began the game by having the base rules stated above. Players were the only active participants, those who didn't play- the civilians were exempt, and although opportunity came a-knocking on the back of ambition, you would only be truly rewarded if lady luck deemed you worthy. It was an excellent metaphor for life(and selling heroin). If you were smart you were given an gambler's chance at winning a small bit of fleeting power and some hard sugar. The power, of course, is just a proliferation of the game itself so, in theory, it should never allow the game itself to get played and thus undermine the integrity of the guessing game's base conceit, to control and manipulate kids into sitting down and shutting up (that said, getting kids to sit down and shut up without hurting them physically is a fucking artform- more on this later).
The problems arise when someone figures out how to use the internal rules of the game itself to actually INCREASE the influence of the game. First case. A kid named Renee figures out that the most (and easiest) opportunities for participation are at the beginning of class, so Renee answers as many questions as he can at the beginning of each day, letting the rest of the sycophants in the class to squabble after the remaining bits of more prestigious but ultimately equal-valuable of the questions. Renee then waits for the smiling sycophants to write down their estimates at the end of the day. When he reaches the estimation paper he proceeds to use his handful of guesses to straddle the guesses other kids write down. So, in example, if Suzy Crackho writes down 560 he uses two of his day's estimations to do 561 and 559. This neutralizes Ms. Crackho's guess for the day. He also, being an engineer of both people and their systems, takes the time to figure out who is MOST likely to guess right. If given the choice, little Renee will spend his resources neutralizing kids with glasses or kids who seem to have the early signs of Asbergers/Autism (he ignores the obvious political incorrectness of this impulse, I mean the kid is in fucking fifth grade, give him some credit). Now, at the end of the month, when the number is called, Renee has covered a massive range of numbers. And of course, he wins more than his classmates. Now, he has a big box of treats and a little bit of power. But Ms. Gardiner is on to him.
Case 2. Ms. Gardiner is not an idiot, no, she is a Keynesian. seeing what Renee has done, she starts limiting the number of times a single kid can guess and forces each estimate to be a certain distance from the other she is introducing some artificial efficiency into her market. Now, Renee can no longer hustle his system. But of course, he is holding the power and the candy. Leveraging the candy, Renee begins approaching the aforementioned most likely candidates to win on the playground and starts lending them a milkyway here or a dipping dot there. Likewise, when it's his turn to run the guessing game, he uses materials that are almost impossible to properly guess, things like legos or peanut brittle where there are no real uniform sizes with which a rainman can run his voodoo(once again, kid is a fifth grader, cut him some slack on the PC side of things). This insures that he can have some semblance of control of the game. In fact now he controls both the street end (the play ground) and the business end (the guessing game) of things. Using his influence he begins leaking answers to his beneficiaries which are off enough such that Ms. Gardiner cannot see the manipulative distribution but close enough that outlying players who are not under Renee's influence can gain a foothold. Now, each time on of them wins, Renee takes a 35% candy cut and a promise to choose the next material. This 35% insures that bribes keep reaching the right hands while the choosing gives him the power to keep competition at bay. Influence and domination. That's how Escobar did it.
I always hated Renee. When I finally got to choose the things to be guessed, I tried to choose sand and Ms. Gardiner told me I wasn't allowed to do that and gave the choice to one of Renee's lackies. Renee also was later kicked out of school for biting a teacher, a nurse, and one of his colleagues in 6th grade. So there's always that.
Anyway, the game became the sole reason that we worked in the class.
In a sense, all fifth graders are sociopaths.
Renee's game worked for a simple reason. The simplest vision is usually the most easy to execute. This is because simple ideas tend to be linked into the more mechanical naturalistic processes of the world and society. It's why the Colosseum and Parthenon are still standing, why Jersey Shore is a cultural force, and why there are, and will be, so many illegitimate children.
I am an illegitimate child. And my biological parents want nothing to do with me. This isn't why I would not approach them though. They lost any say over my actions when they sent me to an orphanage, and I will ignore their autonomy from me because I don't care about their emotional states. That would be pretentious.
Being an illegitimate child is not that big of a deal because the whole concept is based off of relationships and relationships are becoming less of a big deal, and those are losing influence over how we navigate our lives for the same reason that Mrs. Gardiner's estimating game, and the DOJ's 'Operation Fast and Furious' failed.
Relationships are becoming more complex. And complex things fail. People have more things they want, more ambitions to see through, and more ways to not do either. Likewise, with the sexual revolution, there are more people to have sex with and more ways to pretend you are having sex. All these mores tend to lead to complication, and complication kills good ideas based in simplicity.
And I am not just talking about relationships that involve sex, in fact, in some ways I think the ones of the Philos and Agape are more complicated. Of course parental relationships involve both. This is a discussion for later though.
The point is that if I were to actually play the odds and hunt down my Bio-Mom, all my life and relationships with my adoptive parents, their parents, my cousins, my friends, and my life would come into play. I would be forced to feel and think about things I actively try not to care about but inform everything my identity informs in my day-to-day life which is indeed everything. This is a complex problem. I don't need to talk about this. In fact, I probably can't because I am not Amy Tan, I really don't know how to talk about identity issues in this kind of medium. Just imagine your own family and then multiply it by two families. Of course, I do know that this complexity would boil down into an unproductive act if I did find my biological parents.
I would probably just say passive aggressive shit to her. She would be getting groceries and I would say, "those tomatoes you got there sure do look like a SON of a gun..." or when she is waiting for a traffic crossing I would say, "Boy this sure takes a long time, someone could GIVE BIRTH waiting for a green light."
And here's the kicker. With all my trepidation and over-thinking this, I could say all the most twisted, bitter, things I wanted to her and you know what her reaction would be? She would just smile, nod, and cross the street. And I would be the silly young man out of fifteen million people in the greater Seoul area who mumbled something to her at the crosswalk.
And if she smiled and if this were her reaction, there would really be nothing else to say.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Haylookitsa Charupa
It occurred to me while writing this that gordita is a word for “little fatty”. I am going to name one of my students Gordita.
Gordita Chalupa Aye Aye Aye
Gordita Freeman
Gordita Gecko
Gordita Enmaipanss
Teaching Korean children English is exactly like trying to get a puppy to shit on the floor. Well not exactly per say. It’s more akin to trying to convince a puppy to shit on a certain part of the floor. You keep trying to tell the little thing something and it just sits there and it just looks at you and then it pees. Looking back, I think it is more appropriate to say that Teaching Korean children English as a second language is exactly like trying to teach a Korean puppy English as a second language. They are indomitably cute and their first language is Korean.
That’s not to say that these kids are are dumb. In fact, I mean the opposite: for their age, they are smarter than I was at that point. On life’s curve, these kids will be proper adults by the time they hit my age. This is something only a few of my generation can brag about. Korean children are basically America’s most precocious children but tinier and more addicted to sugar and video games.
They keep asking me my age and weight. This is disconcerting.
Like any idiot who thinks they can shape a child’s future, I worry about the world these kids will grow up in. Korea has the highest suicide rate of any country in the world. In Korea, per 100,000 people dudes kill themselves. And per 100,000 people 19 dudettes kill themselves. Seoul alone has upwards of 10 million people. So on average since this information was started to be collected in the 1960’s, over 200 people kill themselves in Korea in my city alone per year. This is the entire city of Roberts, MT dead in one year because they sucked at their jobs or school or whatnot.
There is tremendous pressure put on these kids each day. From 0830 -1500 they go to school and then after that some go to private ‘Hakwons’ (private schools) where they get to learn English from people more white (and thus more qualified) than me. Some kids go to sports clubs or other assorted activities where other more bigger people yell at them for doing things that are not the things that the more bigger people are being paid to yell at the kids to do. This is a Korean childhood. After this, they go to middle school where they are told that if they don’t do well they are going to have a shit life or go to a less shitty highschool so they can join the military later on and get yelled at by people who are afraid that other GED holders are going to stream down from the north and rape and pillage the land all the way to Jeju island. After this, they get jobs which they work at the same time they go to graduate school until they get married, pump out some kids and have their own little things to yell at. Well, as stated above, they can also kill themselves. But that’s more or less option C.
None of this really seems that alien to me.
Of course this ethos is not all bad. Seoul itself is a testament to this. This town is a mega-town where every nook and alley contains a restaurant, a domicile, or a place to put a nook or alley. It lights up every night like the Blade Runner set, this city is a science fiction story. People here can start their heaters from their cell phones. They have locks that they can unlock from their cell phones. The buildings regularly turn into giant walking robots that keep Japan at bay… literally… sorry. One time I saw a Korean man jump forward into the street and zoom off on a light cycle. Last night, a giant primordial being made from light attacked city center so the city turned itself inside out and some guy named Bin Won fought it with a spear made from pure respect for ones elders. Also, everyone here is amazingly dressed.
My next post is going to be about globalization because this place is basically you average American city but bigger, more stylish, more suicidy, more ambitious, and filled with Asian/pacific islanders.
Gordita Chalupa Aye Aye Aye
Gordita Freeman
Gordita Gecko
Gordita Enmaipanss
Teaching Korean children English is exactly like trying to get a puppy to shit on the floor. Well not exactly per say. It’s more akin to trying to convince a puppy to shit on a certain part of the floor. You keep trying to tell the little thing something and it just sits there and it just looks at you and then it pees. Looking back, I think it is more appropriate to say that Teaching Korean children English as a second language is exactly like trying to teach a Korean puppy English as a second language. They are indomitably cute and their first language is Korean.
That’s not to say that these kids are are dumb. In fact, I mean the opposite: for their age, they are smarter than I was at that point. On life’s curve, these kids will be proper adults by the time they hit my age. This is something only a few of my generation can brag about. Korean children are basically America’s most precocious children but tinier and more addicted to sugar and video games.
They keep asking me my age and weight. This is disconcerting.
Like any idiot who thinks they can shape a child’s future, I worry about the world these kids will grow up in. Korea has the highest suicide rate of any country in the world. In Korea, per 100,000 people dudes kill themselves. And per 100,000 people 19 dudettes kill themselves. Seoul alone has upwards of 10 million people. So on average since this information was started to be collected in the 1960’s, over 200 people kill themselves in Korea in my city alone per year. This is the entire city of Roberts, MT dead in one year because they sucked at their jobs or school or whatnot.
There is tremendous pressure put on these kids each day. From 0830 -1500 they go to school and then after that some go to private ‘Hakwons’ (private schools) where they get to learn English from people more white (and thus more qualified) than me. Some kids go to sports clubs or other assorted activities where other more bigger people yell at them for doing things that are not the things that the more bigger people are being paid to yell at the kids to do. This is a Korean childhood. After this, they go to middle school where they are told that if they don’t do well they are going to have a shit life or go to a less shitty highschool so they can join the military later on and get yelled at by people who are afraid that other GED holders are going to stream down from the north and rape and pillage the land all the way to Jeju island. After this, they get jobs which they work at the same time they go to graduate school until they get married, pump out some kids and have their own little things to yell at. Well, as stated above, they can also kill themselves. But that’s more or less option C.
None of this really seems that alien to me.
Of course this ethos is not all bad. Seoul itself is a testament to this. This town is a mega-town where every nook and alley contains a restaurant, a domicile, or a place to put a nook or alley. It lights up every night like the Blade Runner set, this city is a science fiction story. People here can start their heaters from their cell phones. They have locks that they can unlock from their cell phones. The buildings regularly turn into giant walking robots that keep Japan at bay… literally… sorry. One time I saw a Korean man jump forward into the street and zoom off on a light cycle. Last night, a giant primordial being made from light attacked city center so the city turned itself inside out and some guy named Bin Won fought it with a spear made from pure respect for ones elders. Also, everyone here is amazingly dressed.
My next post is going to be about globalization because this place is basically you average American city but bigger, more stylish, more suicidy, more ambitious, and filled with Asian/pacific islanders.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Haylookitsa Socialnessity
It occurred to me while I was shoving candied seaweed in my face that Ryan Gosling's career route thus far is strangely reminiscent of Leonardo Di Caprio's. He gets his first leg up playing an attractive dude doing unattractive poor people things in an attractive way thus making an attractive rich person love him for the things. And then they bang and your girlfriend breaks up with you because you are not Ryan Gosling. This is the problem with romance. You are not Ryan Gosling. I bet Ryan Gosling could score a flight attendant.
I have realized that I have not been sticking to this blog very well. This is because I have been busy trying to figure out how to live in a foreign country who uses squiggly lines in place of letters and has a populace who enjoy putting things they find on beaches in their faces. I make fun because I want to learn. And Hangookerian is a fickle bitch.
Anyway, hopefully posts will be flowing in, however I need to warn, I am going to treat this thing as both a writing experiment and a notebook which means some things I write were started before I left and I finally figured out how I want them to go, and others are random scrawling because my hands were pissed off at me. Sometimes I just lock a stray cat in my wardrobe with a laser-pointer and a bag of water balloons and see what comes of it. So what I am saying is that some of these posts are going to be complete shit. This doesn't bother me because your enjoyment is enjoyable to me, your pointless elucidation on the specifics of my life rubs my ego in all sorts of wonderful ways, and your discomfort is hilarious.
Anyway, so far I got an apartment, met some awesome people, started a really good job with all sorts of interesting stories and experiences, and have been collecting wisdom on the secrets of the East. However, most importantly, I finally got to see the Steve Carrel film, "Crazy Stupid Love".
I saw it on an airplane. It was on a tiny screen in front of me on the back of the person in front of me's seat. My grandmother's boyfriend once told me that he thought the accommodation on Korean air was unmatched and that they had hot flight attendants. He was right on both accounts. Although I would wager my left thumb that the flight attendants on Continental would kick the shit out of the KA ladies physically, mentally, and cup size... although I bet the Korean Air attendants speak better Korean.
Even me, a humble coacher in the back of the deathtube received a warm towel. I fucking love warm towels. They are like the last lines of a Keats poem being read in a cold cabin as the dark cold of night puts out the last of your chimney smoke. The towel is warm and damp... and then a few moments later... it's not warm anymore and your face is wet. There are many films and great songs that end this way.
Anyway, So I saw "Crazy Stupid Love" which was really good for the first half and then there was a silly coincidence where one person is revealed to be someone you didnt know was someone else and then the whole thing becomes your standard Romantic Comedy fare. That said, there are some pretty funny parts in the whole thing.
There's this one part where Ryan Gosling punches a dude in the face, that was pretty cool. Then there's a part where Steve Carrell punches Ryan Gosling in the face, that was pretty cool. And then there's a part where Steve Carrell jumps out of a car, which was funny. Also there's a whole subplot about how people are different on the inside than the outside and stuff. Standard stuff.
Anyway, I am in Seoul, Seoungbak area and am living in a one room apartment. I have a sink, a stove, and a laundry machine in the same room as my bed and it is surprisingly comfortable. Met some of the coolest people I have met since I met some of the coolest people I have ever met.
Peace. More to come.
I have realized that I have not been sticking to this blog very well. This is because I have been busy trying to figure out how to live in a foreign country who uses squiggly lines in place of letters and has a populace who enjoy putting things they find on beaches in their faces. I make fun because I want to learn. And Hangookerian is a fickle bitch.
Anyway, hopefully posts will be flowing in, however I need to warn, I am going to treat this thing as both a writing experiment and a notebook which means some things I write were started before I left and I finally figured out how I want them to go, and others are random scrawling because my hands were pissed off at me. Sometimes I just lock a stray cat in my wardrobe with a laser-pointer and a bag of water balloons and see what comes of it. So what I am saying is that some of these posts are going to be complete shit. This doesn't bother me because your enjoyment is enjoyable to me, your pointless elucidation on the specifics of my life rubs my ego in all sorts of wonderful ways, and your discomfort is hilarious.
Anyway, so far I got an apartment, met some awesome people, started a really good job with all sorts of interesting stories and experiences, and have been collecting wisdom on the secrets of the East. However, most importantly, I finally got to see the Steve Carrel film, "Crazy Stupid Love".
I saw it on an airplane. It was on a tiny screen in front of me on the back of the person in front of me's seat. My grandmother's boyfriend once told me that he thought the accommodation on Korean air was unmatched and that they had hot flight attendants. He was right on both accounts. Although I would wager my left thumb that the flight attendants on Continental would kick the shit out of the KA ladies physically, mentally, and cup size... although I bet the Korean Air attendants speak better Korean.
Even me, a humble coacher in the back of the deathtube received a warm towel. I fucking love warm towels. They are like the last lines of a Keats poem being read in a cold cabin as the dark cold of night puts out the last of your chimney smoke. The towel is warm and damp... and then a few moments later... it's not warm anymore and your face is wet. There are many films and great songs that end this way.
Anyway, So I saw "Crazy Stupid Love" which was really good for the first half and then there was a silly coincidence where one person is revealed to be someone you didnt know was someone else and then the whole thing becomes your standard Romantic Comedy fare. That said, there are some pretty funny parts in the whole thing.
There's this one part where Ryan Gosling punches a dude in the face, that was pretty cool. Then there's a part where Steve Carrell punches Ryan Gosling in the face, that was pretty cool. And then there's a part where Steve Carrell jumps out of a car, which was funny. Also there's a whole subplot about how people are different on the inside than the outside and stuff. Standard stuff.
Anyway, I am in Seoul, Seoungbak area and am living in a one room apartment. I have a sink, a stove, and a laundry machine in the same room as my bed and it is surprisingly comfortable. Met some of the coolest people I have met since I met some of the coolest people I have ever met.
Peace. More to come.
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